It is finally Friday and I am starting to feel more like myself than I have in a long time. I have learned that my last Cushing’s test has come back negative. My doctor is now consulting with a specialist to see if there are more tests that need to be ran. She has also decided to go back and do more testing for my PCOS. I was diagnosed years ago for PCOS without having any testing done. I am hoping that if we learn more about my PCOS there may be some options to help with some of my symptoms. It is frustrating not know where I am going next but I know this is a process and I have to be patient. It helped having therapy and talking about the issues and feelings I have been having lately. My last session left me raw and vulnerable but has helped me move forward. It is amazing to me that I still do not realize just how much my trauma continues to affect my life. I truly understand now that the studies are correct we stunt in our personality development at the age abuse started. I can start to see my adolescent side come out at times and fighting to take control as a means to protect myself. That is why this blog has become so important to me. This is a place that I can truly process my thoughts and feelings when I am triggered. This is the way I can take my power back when I feel powerless.