This week was great. I had my first audit at work and while it was a lot of work to get ready for it the team nailed it!!! No citations and good for two years.
After my emotional breakdown last week at work I feel much better after getting past my embarrassment. I don’t like to show my vulnerability but it sure made itself know at work of all places. I feel like the person who witnessed this understands my moods a little better and realizes that as the boss I keep everything bottled up so as not to be weak or at least to not appear week.
Two Monday’s ago I hit the lowest of my low. I was suppose to go see my therapist that day and when I got up I decided not to go. Not because I was doing ok, but because I didn’t know what the point was any more. I did not want to continue to struggle and feel alone. The day I needed that therapy was the day I skipped it. As a social worker and therapist I know better then this. I can’t and will not let myself get to that place again. I never want to feel that low again. I am going to try and remember that tomorrow it can only go up from my lowest. ❤️
