Just want to feel normal

I know what you are thinking what does normal even mean. Well I guess my normal is a hot struggling mess at least lately. I want to be “normal” that we see on tv were in less then 60 minutes all of my troubles have been fixed. Wouldn’t that be amazing! Maybe I should just make my own tv show.

I think what I am really looking for is being able to wake up in the morning knowing that the day will be ok and not start out with any issues. Looking for that day when I go to bed I would know that I was ok safe loved comfortable.

Wow sorry this post is going to change directions. While I was writing this post my amazing friend walked into my office. We took a break and walked outside where I started to talk about my feeling off all week. I explained about sharing one of my intense posts with my husband and how the interaction really didn’t go the way I thought it would or I should say, how I imagined it would. Once we talked back inside and continued talking in my office I processed this. Of course I cried, which honestly i still struggle with but over time and talking about the post and my husbands reaction I started to look at my situation more logically.

I wish I knew why processing out loud with my peeps gives me the means to stop and reevaluate my situations. It would be easier if I was able to just do that at the beginning lol it would save me a lot of time and energy! 😊 having found certain people coming into my life over the last few months has been amazing and also fucked up. Before my best friends I spent a lot of time thinking I was not “normal” and was always better off alone or only with my husband. While my husband is amazing and I am so happy he is in my life, having people in my life that get me makes life so much better. Thank you and you know who you are! Love ya! 😘

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