When is a good time to rethink the direction of your life? Some people feel it’s never a good time when things in the world are uncertain. I am not sure I agree with that. Uncertainty should be a great time to rethink priorities, dreams, and goals.
I wonder if it is normal for changes to happen every few years. Is this a sign of never being satisfied with life or is this a sign that there is continued growth and maybe an adjustment needs to be made?
There are certain things in my life that have been stable for years that I do not want to change. The biggest one is my husband, my partner, my best friend. Our marriage is not perfect and will never be perfect, but one thing I have come to learn is that neither of us is giving up. We always fight our way back to the one constant and that’s us.
Then for years I struggled to figure out what my purpose was in life. It took a long time but becoming a social worker and then a clinical social worker opened up a whole new world for me. It got me to my current job and I’m the four years I have been with my agency I have learned so much more. I have so much passion for mental health and helping people recover and live their best lives.
Now I wonder if this was not a stepping stone. Is this as far as I was meant to go. Is running a program for someone else really the direction I should be continuing down. While in school I made goals for myself. First I got my generals down, then did my undergrad, then went to get my masters, took myself through the steps and became a LCSW, worked my way up in my program and became a supervisor. These are all great goals that I accomplished and am proud of. Do I stop here and just go through the rest of my life right here? Is there more out there for me? Can I take my experience and knowledge and build more?
These are the questions I have been asking myself for the last few months. The last month has pushed these thought even more forward in my mind. I feel like I’m being pushed along because I have stopped believing there was more for me to do. How old is too old to start a new adventure? Can I be selfish and ask my husband to take this adventure with me? Will he think I am crazy?! Yes he probably will but at the end of the day he would cheer me on as he always has.
I figure what is the worse that could happen at this point. It’s not like I’m out of a job or leaving my job. What would be the harm in exploring a new dream and finding out if it is an option? Who says I can do the research gather the information and go from there. This is the perfect time to consider what’s next, before life comes back full force and I no longer have the time and option to make new dreams and goals!!!