Last night was not a good mental health night. Today I am going okay but I realize something needs to change. I need to change and grow. I cannot change most of the situations going on in my life but there are some I can control. First thing I need to do is start taking better care of my physical health. My physical health alters my mental health and I know this and really have not cared. My plan is to get back to taking my meds regularly and watching what I eat. My diabetes needs to be better managed and only I can do that, this will help manage my moods so much better.
I need to next take restock of those in my life. I give way to much to people and most of the time I don’t feel like I get the support back when I need it. I want to make my circle smaller and have those people that I can count on, not the people who say I can count on them or the people I have been stupid enough to think I can count on.
I need to work on getting my needs met instead of making sure everyone else is happy. I need to be the most important person to myself. I need to learn that I don’t have to give and bend for others in my life if they want to be there they will accept it and love me anyways. If anyone can’t I need to move on and keep them at a distance. I need to be my own BFF because no one else can or will be what I need.
Every day and every year my marriage is so important for my sanity and my happiness. My husband is my safe place to fall and snuggle into when I feel scared or in a bad place. I also realize my marriage needs work always. I need to be strong enough to ask for what I need, give of myself what is needed, and believe that we can do anything together. I also know I need to be strong enough to ask for what I need to keep my marriage strong.
The last thing I plan to focus on is my business. My business gives me so much sense of purpose. It’s hard right now but every day I know that the business will get better and will be amazing. It’s part of who I am and the passion I have for my future!