Have you ever lived with your head in the sand and suddenly realize that maybe things are not as you would like to think they are. Have you ever given so much of yourself to a person and then suddenly realize that it is all bullshit. It takes one moment to open your eyes and realize that it’s not okay.
Do you have that one person in your life that has to think their life is worse then your own? Do you feel like you have to defend yourself all the time. It’s exhausting! I need to keep reminding myself that I need to continue to revolve and change my life. Part of that is reminding myself the only person who truly gives a shit about my life is me.
I think I need to make a few person goals around changing my idea of the person I want to be. First goal needs to be giving less of myself to people outside of my intimate world. Goal 2 needs to be looking at myself and figuring out why I feel the need to give more of myself to those around me instead of myself. Last goal is learning to care a lot less about what people think and feel about me.
I want to find out a way to be happy with myself. I want to love myself more then other people. I also need to find away to read those around me to see just how important I am in their lives. I need to stop being so naive about the world.
I had put in to much work on myself and over the last few months I have stopped. Why do we do these things to ourselves. Why are we never enough for ourselves? Maybe this is the question that leads to being finding out what happiness is really is