This year just continues to be a kick in the ass! I am so over everything. This was suppose to be a great year minus a few challenges. It has been anything but. Let’s not even talk about the obvious issues with COVID and the other issues society is facing. That should be enough but … Continue reading Nothing is Ever Easy →

If you asked me a year ago how my life would be different I would never have guess where I am today. I worked at a job that left me with no motivation, no excitement, and a lot of stress. I imagined myself in this job until I retired. Well that is not where I … Continue reading Oh how life changes ! →

This week has been a little rough. I have found myself second guessing myself and my goals. Starting a business has been a roller coaster or a ride. Many days I am excited and loving where my life is heading. Then other days I just want to burry my head in the sand and pretend … Continue reading Not as Strong as I like to pretend! →

I need to remember that using my blog is something that helps me and I need to start using it again. I continue to struggle, I am sure everything going on with year is not helping. I also see that we have a full moon and that never helps a person out. I have been … Continue reading Another Day →

The last couple of weeks have been tough for sleeping. I don't know how much more I can take of these nightmares. They go away for awhile and I think I am in the clear. Things start to go well and bam all of a sudden I am a teenager again living out the same … Continue reading The Nightmares are Back →

I know everyone goes through times when they just are not sure who they are. When these times happen to me I end up doing something stupid and hurting myself. I do not mean physically hurting myself. What I mean is I will do or say something that will end up in me being hurt … Continue reading Feeling lost →

Yesterday I wrote a blog of the nightmare I have been dealing with a few nights a week in the hopes that it would end the nightmare. Well it kind of worked. I did not have the same nightmare last night, but I was not free of the nightmares. I don’t know how much longer … Continue reading Well kind of helped! →

Lately the nightmares have been coming back again a few times a week. I have tried to ignore them and push through my day but I know better so I turned to my coping skill making a post. I am sure a lot of it has to do with stress. Working my normal job plus … Continue reading Why don’t it end! →

The last couple of months have been crazy. Between Covid-19, my mom being sick, and my realization that I do not enjoy my job. Once I decided that a change was needed I did not let any grass grow under my feet. I have 3 other partners and we are moving forward very quickly with … Continue reading Everything keeps changing →

I hate these nights where my head just does not want to shut down. There is so much that I can’t stop reflecting on of this year which is still so early in the year. There has been so many changes in these few short months. In January I made the decision to move to … Continue reading 2020 Reflecting →