Yesterday I wrote a blog of the nightmare I have been dealing with a few nights a week in the hopes that it would end the nightmare. Well it kind of worked. I did not have the same nightmare last night, but I was not free of the nightmares. I don’t know how much longer … Continue reading Well kind of helped! →

Lately the nightmares have been coming back again a few times a week. I have tried to ignore them and push through my day but I know better so I turned to my coping skill making a post. I am sure a lot of it has to do with stress. Working my normal job plus … Continue reading Why don’t it end! →

The last couple of months have been crazy. Between Covid-19, my mom being sick, and my realization that I do not enjoy my job. Once I decided that a change was needed I did not let any grass grow under my feet. I have 3 other partners and we are moving forward very quickly with … Continue reading Everything keeps changing →

I hate these nights where my head just does not want to shut down. There is so much that I can’t stop reflecting on of this year which is still so early in the year. There has been so many changes in these few short months. In January I made the decision to move to … Continue reading 2020 Reflecting →

This was a tough week for me. I have been dealing with a migraine all week and then last night I dealt with stomach issues and didn’t sleep. Mom had chemo again yesterday and she continues to do well. I’m wondering if I am getting all her symptoms so she can continue to do well. … Continue reading This week ugh! →

Today I am at UW again sitting in the parking garage while my amazing mom is inside starting the next round of her chemo. The first 3 weeks of the first round went great for her. It was that last week when she was off that I watched her suffer and struggle more. That fourth … Continue reading Cancer Journey Continues! →

When is a good time to rethink the direction of your life? Some people feel it’s never a good time when things in the world are uncertain. I am not sure I agree with that. Uncertainty should be a great time to rethink priorities, dreams, and goals. I wonder if it is normal for changes … Continue reading New Adventures? →

I know there is so much uncertainty in this world right now.  I wish that I had the capacity lately to look outside of my own world and really say I care about those around me.  I can honestly say that I can't remember at time where I wake every morning and wish I could … Continue reading The Lowest of the Low →

Trauma, it’s that thing that no matter how hard you try never seems to let go of a person. Many days I get up and go through my day a different am ok. Then suddenly things come back and hit me in the face and don’t let go. I hate the place that my trauma … Continue reading Does it ever get easier? →

No mater how much you feel that you do the best you can in all areas of your life, but things are not going well it is clear that others will never feel you are good enough. I work hard in all things I do in my life. I try hard to keep my marriage … Continue reading Who do you trust? →