Thursday night I came home late from an amazing speaker. I felt the need to wake my husband and share my trigger post with him. It would have been easy to have had him read it to himself but I am working on being more vulnerable with my husband, so I decided to read the … Continue reading Working to Understand →

I know what you are thinking what does normal even mean. Well I guess my normal is a hot struggling mess at least lately. I want to be “normal” that we see on tv were in less then 60 minutes all of my troubles have been fixed. Wouldn’t that be amazing! Maybe I should just … Continue reading Just want to feel normal →

I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I feel so lost and hopeless. I wish I could pinpoint when this feeling started because maybe then I could turn this around. I feel like I am either losing or pushing those around me away. I feel the need to protect myself but from what!? … Continue reading Why just Why →

The intention of this blog is for me to have a place to process my life and the trauma that has shaped my life and also as a means to let people who are suffering to know they are not alone and that they can keep moving forward and lead the life they want. Lately … Continue reading Caution this post may be a trigger please read with this warning in mind. →

Have you ever experienced flashbacks, if so then you will know just how horrible they can be! Then you can turn around and add nightmares to that flashback situation. These instances can cause a person stress, depression, and fear. As things have been more stressful lately I am having an increase in these issues. I … Continue reading Flashbacks →