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It doesn’t seem to matter how much effort and time I put into my trauma treatment. It does to take much for it all to come crashing back down on me. The last few weeks have been pretty stressful with a lot of changes in my business life. Since everything started I have not beenContinue reading “Always there!”

This year just continues to be a kick in the ass! I am so over everything. This was suppose to be a great year minus a few challenges. It has been anything but. Let’s not even talk about the obvious issues with COVID and the other issues society is facing. That should be enough butContinue reading “Nothing is Ever Easy”

If you asked me a year ago how my life would be different I would never have guess where I am today. I worked at a job that left me with no motivation, no excitement, and a lot of stress. I imagined myself in this job until I retired. Well that is not where IContinue reading “Oh how life changes !”

This week has been a little rough. I have found myself second guessing myself and my goals. Starting a business has been a roller coaster or a ride. Many days I am excited and loving where my life is heading. Then other days I just want to burry my head in the sand and pretendContinue reading “Not as Strong as I like to pretend!”

I need to remember that using my blog is something that helps me and I need to start using it again. I continue to struggle, I am sure everything going on with year is not helping. I also see that we have a full moon and that never helps a person out. I have beenContinue reading “Another Day”

The last couple of weeks have been tough for sleeping. I don’t know how much more I can take of these nightmares. They go away for awhile and I think I am in the clear. Things start to go well and bam all of a sudden I am a teenager again living out the sameContinue reading “The Nightmares are Back”

I know everyone goes through times when they just are not sure who they are. When these times happen to me I end up doing something stupid and hurting myself. I do not mean physically hurting myself. What I mean is I will do or say something that will end up in me being hurtContinue reading “Feeling lost”

Yesterday I wrote a blog of the nightmare I have been dealing with a few nights a week in the hopes that it would end the nightmare. Well it kind of worked. I did not have the same nightmare last night, but I was not free of the nightmares. I don’t know how much longerContinue reading “Well kind of helped!”

Lately the nightmares have been coming back again a few times a week. I have tried to ignore them and push through my day but I know better so I turned to my coping skill making a post. I am sure a lot of it has to do with stress. Working my normal job plusContinue reading “Why don’t it end!”

The last couple of months have been crazy. Between Covid-19, my mom being sick, and my realization that I do not enjoy my job. Once I decided that a change was needed I did not let any grass grow under my feet. I have 3 other partners and we are moving forward very quickly withContinue reading “Everything keeps changing”

I hate these nights where my head just does not want to shut down. There is so much that I can’t stop reflecting on of this year which is still so early in the year. There has been so many changes in these few short months. In January I made the decision to move toContinue reading “2020 Reflecting”

This was a tough week for me. I have been dealing with a migraine all week and then last night I dealt with stomach issues and didn’t sleep. Mom had chemo again yesterday and she continues to do well. I’m wondering if I am getting all her symptoms so she can continue to do well.Continue reading “This week ugh!”

Today I am at UW again sitting in the parking garage while my amazing mom is inside starting the next round of her chemo. The first 3 weeks of the first round went great for her. It was that last week when she was off that I watched her suffer and struggle more. That fourthContinue reading “Cancer Journey Continues!”

When is a good time to rethink the direction of your life? Some people feel it’s never a good time when things in the world are uncertain. I am not sure I agree with that. Uncertainty should be a great time to rethink priorities, dreams, and goals. I wonder if it is normal for changesContinue reading “New Adventures?”

I know there is so much uncertainty in this world right now.  I wish that I had the capacity lately to look outside of my own world and really say I care about those around me.  I can honestly say that I can’t remember at time where I wake every morning and wish I couldContinue reading “The Lowest of the Low”