Have you ever experienced flashbacks, if so then you will know just how horrible they can be! Then you can turn around and add nightmares to that flashback situation. These instances can cause a person stress, depression, and fear. As things have been more stressful lately I am having an increase in these issues. I … Continue reading Flashbacks →

Things continue to move along in my life. There has been a lot of ups and downs but I feel like things will settle back down. My am proud of my husband who continues to work on our marriage but also working on his own problems. If you would have asked me three weeks ago … Continue reading Keep moving forward. →

This week continues to be a struggle. I would love to curl up in my bed with the covers over my head and just say fuck the world. I continue to be on a roller coaster with my emotions. I keep asking myself am I doing enough, what more do I do, do I have … Continue reading Exhausted →

I did stay home and waited for my husband to get home from work. For the first time in a long time we were able to sit down and really talk and think about where our lives are going. Thankfully we both realize that this marriage is important and we need to find away to … Continue reading What happens next? →

This week has been so emotionally exhausting! This week brought so much uncertainty and fear that I didn’t know whether I was coming or going. As you probably remember I have been married almost 21 years and on Monday I was ready to call it quits. My husband came home and we got into a … Continue reading One day at a time →

If you have ever struggled with trauma and mental health issues then you will probably understand this post. The last two weeks have been an emotional roller coaster. I am not that person who cries but the last two weeks it seems to be all I have been doing. Last week was my tipping point. … Continue reading Breaking down the wall. →

By Mae Too much time has been spent focusing on the past Without it this reality would not exist But settling in the comfort of familiarity is not growth This new reality is the next step It's uncomfortable But there's no more time  for experiments test runs or observation Time to glance ahead With feet … Continue reading The Next wave →