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Last night was not a good mental health night. Today I am going okay but I realize something needs to change. I need to change and grow. I cannot change most of the situations going on in my life but there are some I can control. First thing I need to do is start takingContinue reading “New Year next Chapter”

This is what I wrote today on Facebook. I know many people are reflecting on 2020 and can’t wait to see it go. While it has not been the easiest year I can’t say it was a awful year. In February we learned my mom has stage 4 cancer. This sucks completely but I lookContinue reading “Another Year!”

How much can one person handle before she breaks. How much can see take and still hold her head up high. At what point will she break. No matter how strong I am, I have a breaking point. I’m ready to cut everything out of my life and focus on my marriage, my mom, andContinue reading “How Much is to Much”

Last night was rough. I did my best to pick a fight with a friend. Not because I wanted to actually fight but because if I am angry then I can normally ignore my other feelings. Well that didn’t work so well for me yesterday. I wanted someone to hurt as bad as I wasContinue reading “My Well is Full!”

Lately things have been going pretty well. Of course nothing is perfect, but at least lately I have felt pretty balanced. One thing that helps is I love my work. I love owning my own business and getting to work with people I want to work with and help them be successful in their lives.Continue reading “Things Have Been OK”

I think I use to like it better when I locked myself away in my house and did not leave it. I did not have to see anyone, make nice, or take the chance of being left feeling unsafe. Lately I feel like I am all of the above and it is hell. There isContinue reading “Emotions and Vulnerability are not Easy”

It doesn’t seem to matter how much effort and time I put into my trauma treatment. It does to take much for it all to come crashing back down on me. The last few weeks have been pretty stressful with a lot of changes in my business life. Since everything started I have not beenContinue reading “Always there!”

This year just continues to be a kick in the ass! I am so over everything. This was suppose to be a great year minus a few challenges. It has been anything but. Let’s not even talk about the obvious issues with COVID and the other issues society is facing. That should be enough butContinue reading “Nothing is Ever Easy”

If you asked me a year ago how my life would be different I would never have guess where I am today. I worked at a job that left me with no motivation, no excitement, and a lot of stress. I imagined myself in this job until I retired. Well that is not where IContinue reading “Oh how life changes !”

This week has been a little rough. I have found myself second guessing myself and my goals. Starting a business has been a roller coaster or a ride. Many days I am excited and loving where my life is heading. Then other days I just want to burry my head in the sand and pretendContinue reading “Not as Strong as I like to pretend!”

I need to remember that using my blog is something that helps me and I need to start using it again. I continue to struggle, I am sure everything going on with year is not helping. I also see that we have a full moon and that never helps a person out. I have beenContinue reading “Another Day”

The last couple of weeks have been tough for sleeping. I don’t know how much more I can take of these nightmares. They go away for awhile and I think I am in the clear. Things start to go well and bam all of a sudden I am a teenager again living out the sameContinue reading “The Nightmares are Back”

I know everyone goes through times when they just are not sure who they are. When these times happen to me I end up doing something stupid and hurting myself. I do not mean physically hurting myself. What I mean is I will do or say something that will end up in me being hurtContinue reading “Feeling lost”